Monday, June 29, 2015

Новости

Hellooooooo,

I didn’t post as I had planned to…oops. I will briefly catch everyone up!

Last week I worked more with Katya on RNA Processing, Reverse Transcription, and PCR. I also did an RNA Extraction by myself with Nastya so that was fun J

On Wednesday, Kaitlin (friend from Conn who studies Russian with me and who’s interning in China-ish) and I met up for dinner at a fabulous Georgian restaurant called Khachapuri. I am DEFINITELY taking my family there because it really was that good. We met at 7:30 and stayed until at least 11pm. Between the two of us, we had two bottles of wine and two khachapuris (bread/edd/cheese dish – DELICIOUS). It was so fun and she ended up coming over to my apartment in order so that we could go to the banya early the next morning.

We woke up earlier, had cereal, and off we went to cleanse ourselves! The banya was great – it was her first time so I think she was glad to have a friend. Of course it’s always more fun in general to go with people. We did many rounds of sauna, cold water, shower, pool, etc…. and eventually left a few hours later, feeling tired and refreshed.

There was an outdoor market by the metro, so we stopped and window-shopped for a bit, but unfortunately I couldn’t stay long since I still had a day of work ahead of me. I’m very happy we got to reunite – our friendship has reached new levels in light of delicious Georgian food (and wine) and nakedness at the banya. Lolz.

Friday morning, my family arrived!! I met them at the hotel and we went to red square and GYM (arguably the most famous shopping center in Moscow). They were very impressed. There was also a huge book fair taking place – which in my opinion detracted from some of the magic – but I guess it was interesting to see the Square all “done up.” I also wanted to show them Lenin’s Tomb but it was closed. Luckily we have a lot of time.

Today is Monday, and we’ve also been to the State Historical Museum, the Tretyakovskaya Art Museum, and today they are at the Kremlin while I’m at work. It’s wonderful to show my family around and yesterday they even got to see and hang out at my apartment!

I feel as if I have such little time left here… it’s so sad L But for now I am happy I get to show them little bits of my world… And of course the conversation and wine don’t hurt either.

Today I’m doing a Western blot, which I’ll finish up tomorrow, and this Friday after my family leaves, I’m going with colleagues from the lab to Pushina, which is a smaller town/city outside Moscow a bit. It will be great to bond, even if I am leaving soon.  

This is very short, but I just wanted to do a quick update.

Movies
1.     Devil Wears Prada. I had never seen it before and it rocked my world. Anne Hathaway is also a huge girl crush.
2.     The Bourne Supremacy. Not as good as the first, but still OK. There were also some scenes in Moscow. (hehe)
3.     The Theory of Everything. GAH! Everyone needs to watch this movie. I completely understand why it was nominated for and won so many awards. Brilliant.

I’ll write more later! Xo.

Tuesday, June 23, 2015

Поедем в дачу

Privet,

I will pick up from where I left off with ze weekend.

Saturday I went to the dacha (summer home) with Balaban and Olga (wife). They picked me up at 9:30am outside my apartment, and from there, we were on our way, only stopping for gas and food. The roads looked very New England-y since they were smaller and had fewer lanes, with forest/trees in the surrounding.

The drive was relaxing and short (35 mins) with minimal traffic. Once we got to the place, we explored and then immediately changed our clothes and had tea (duh!).  The house is amazing. It smells just like a log cabin with Vermont-styled wood. There are 3 bedrooms and a large kitchen (there are also 2 floors). Balaban made almost everything, I believe, including the countertops, tables, doors, etc.

The dacha was not as secluded as I thought it would be, but it was nice seeing grass, gardens, and dirt roads. The house was also bigger than I was picturing. Apparently, Balaban’s son had come one time in the winter three years ago and he accidentally burnt the house to the ground. Yikes. When they say that a dacha is only a summer home, they’re not kidding.

I also like that everyone must change into comfy and relaxing clothes while at the dacha. Balaban was wearing the most hilarious short shorts ever (Dasha made them for him), and Olga and I were both laughing at him.

After our tea, we headed outside. Balaban and Olga were both busy at work in the garden, and they put me to work laying down boards for a future pool. That only took 15 minutes though. When I asked what I could help with next, Balaban smiled, and said, "Let me pull out the hammock." And that's how I spent the rest of the afternoon -- on the hammock. It was glorious and relaxing, and I was in my own little Russian world of tunes and thoughts and day dreams. I wish every day could be a dacha day. 

Eventually, we went inside to have lunch. I got into an interesting discussion with Olga about religion and how strange it is that old babushkas (Russian old ladies) are so religious. In the Soviet Union, people weren't allowed to believe in God (or any other religion, for that matter), so why is religion making a come back NOW in older people when they hadn't been raised that way? Perhaps BECAUSE it was outlawed, now people want to be spiritual? Since it's allowed? I wonder if there was much for underground spirituality in the Soviet Union. It's very interesting. Young people don't really seem to be interested in religion here -- although, I AM at a science institute.... Maybe my perspective is altered a bit.

After a few hours relaxing and chatting and eating, we packed up the house, and set out for the family reunion/house warming party at Balaban's son's house. Apparently, the son (he's from a previous marriage) had moved to a new apartment with his wife and child just recently. When we arrived, we all had a little tour of the place, and it was super nice and big for an apartment in Russia. It’s located between the dacha and Balaban's house in the city. 

Eventually more people came, and it ended up being 8 Russian adults, 2 young girls (ages 1 and 3 maybe?), and me. Everyone sat around in the kitchen and chatted. It was super fun but also exhausting to have to be in that kitchen for 5 hours listening to multiple conversations at once in Russian. Since I still really need to use my entire mind to think and translate, I felt as if I had to pick and choose the conversations I was in. That was hard. And also since everyone was just talking so fast and informally in general, it was hard to keep up. Honestly, I felt as if I could understand more of the Space tour (from last weekend at the museum) than the informal/quick conversations of the evening. Oh well. I understood the ideas.

I really enjoyed talking a lot with Olga and Balaban since I'm comfortable with them and have learned their speech nuances, etc. But 8 Russian strangers was an entirely different can of worms. It was also hard just because I was so much younger than everyone.... there were a lot of separations between us all, but I tried my best to answer questions, ask questions, and get a word in edge-wise. Everyone was very, very nice and welcoming.

The two little girls were also ADORABLE mostly because it is hilarious and so strange to hear kids of that age speak in Russian. If they had been just a tad older, I probably would have tried to speak and play with them rather than the adults (haha).

At one point, one of the husbands abruptly and out of the blue exclaimed, "I love America." I didn't really know what to do with that except for laugh and ask him if he's been, and apparently he's visited a few times to a bunch of different cities. Perhaps sensing my encouragement, he then started to talk about Russian American politics, and then he started talking faster, and I couldn't tell if there was a question in there somewhere..... But I was way too intimidated to pull something semi-intellectual out of my ass in Russian... And then before I could even say anything at all (who knows what it would have been), Olga chuckled and said that I don't like to talk about politics. Which is true. So that was that.

In retrospect, I kind of wish I had tried to say something, especially since he made the first move in saying that he had been to America and liked what he'd seen, etc. But still.... It's too dangerous/awkward/weird to start spurting my stupid liberal American fantasies in a room full of Russians. I'd be happy to listen to their opinions, but I don't want to have to defend mine (in another language and in another country). Maybe that's selfish, but with the shoes that I'm in in this situation, I can't be too careful or too on the defense. 

So anyways. That was that. It was a tiring evening, but overall, an amazing day. The dinner that we had there was also very yummy (stuffed peppers with potatoes, veggies, etc). We left around 9:30pm, and I was in my bed all showered in clean by 10:30pm. 

The next day, I decided to sleep late and be a little lazy. Around 1pm, I finally made it out the door and headed to the "Museum of Moscow." In the courtyard outside of the museum, there was supposed to be a food festival from restaurants around the city. I tried a bunch of different things and people-watched. It was a cloudy but overall gorgeous day. Afterwards, I decided to check out the museum since I hadn't been. 

The museum spanned a few buildings. There was an exhibition of archeology, an exhibition of architecture, and a memorial celebrating 70 years since the end of WW2. I liked the museum a lot; it was interesting and had a wide variety of info.

After the food fair and the museum, I headed to a park nearby to continue reading War and Peace. It was peaceful. Eventually I headed back to the metro. Whenever I read War and Peace on the metro, funny things happen. Usually, no one really looks at each other. BUT, when the person sitting next to me sees I'm reading a huge book in English, they stare and then look up to my face. I keep reading. When I get off the train, they see the cover, and once seeing that, a lot of people REALLY stare at me (probably because they can recognize what the title says). It is a hilarious process that I've now been through over a dozen times. 


I think that's basically it for the weekend. I haven't watched many more movies.... I'm riding out the Grey's wave. Today is Tuesday, and I’ll do one last post before my family comes on FRIDAY! Weeeeeee!

Sunday, June 21, 2015

ForgiveLiveMoveOn

Hi. I lied.

When I finished that last post, I decided I wanted to write more. I don’t want to write about facts right now, so this may get philosophical and/or personal. Young ones, cover your eyes. Это шутка.

Listening to Mat Kearney’s “Moving On” and it feels like soft cool hand soap on my skin. I’m digging it.

I talked about this with my mom and sister over Skype, but I also wanted to have it on record for myself so I’m going to rehash it a bit.

Perhaps the most difficult thing about my time here is not that I’m alone physically (which I quite enjoy), but that I’m alone in my head. If I don’t Skype with Alec or my family, then I will go days without speaking fluent English. This is much more taxing on your brain, being, and body than I expected. I have had to come to the resolution that no one here is ever going to know the real Stephanie, since Russian Stephanie (the person people see here) is only a fraction of the person I am. Unfortunately, Russian Stephanie is slow to process statements, make jokes, and speak off the cusp. Of course I have made friends and acquaintances here, but no one will ever really know me since I can’t express myself the way I want to. It’s frustrating like you wouldn’t believe.

More than that, there are no breaks. Abroad we lived with Russians and had all our classes in Russian, but after all of that, we still had the option of seeing other Americans and venting about cultural differences or language struggles. Here that is gone. I have such respect for expats. Kristin brought up a really poignant example regarding the boarding school we went to… I’ll try to explain the analogy here.

At that school and at that time, Chinese students sat together, Middle Eastern students sat together, and Spanish/Italians sat together. While in school, I remember thinking, like many others, “Why do they seclude themselves? Don’t they want to be exposed to American culture and make American friends?” Finally, almost ten years after first matriculating, I understand.

People want people of their own kind. Being at school in America and having to conduct yourself in English must have been EXHAUSTING for those 15 and 16 year olds! I cannot imagine the physical and mental struggle they must have had to endure to be able to function and not just go insane. We gravitate to our own because we are comfortable there. Korean students weren’t purposefully cutting themselves off; they simply wanted a break from their “American” alter ego. How frustrating it is to portray a different version of yourself.

So that’s that. The hardest part about all of this. And even me explaining it to you is not going to make you truly understand what it’s like until you yourself experience it. Most of you won’t, so you’ll never really understand.

Another thing I’ve been thinking about is death. This sounds very morbid, but I swear it isn’t in my particular context. Someone very close to me lost their mother to cancer three years ago and now the father is getting remarried. Before this person, I was also very close to someone who had lost their mother to cancer 8 years ago. A lot of my friends (not as close as these two) have lost parents as well.

How do you stand in solidarity without grabbing the posters and slogans and “pain” for yourself? How do you stand in solidarity and be selfless?

Every person and grieving process is different, and I’m presumptuous to think that I would have a role in that at all. After all, I’m nobody. I have no power and no place in any of it. I know this person in the aftermath of death – not in its precursor, its occurence, or even in its immediate effects. Because I do not share this experience, I will never truly understand (as I just finished explaining earlier). No matter how many times I sit and listen or am a shoulder to cry on, I will never understand.

Maybe that is just something you have to accept.

I also can’t imagine having to come to terms and “accept” that reality. Thinking about the situation, what happened, or how you feel doesn’t change the reality of it. It won’t bring her back. Both people (Mr 3 years and Mr 8 years) said that a lot to me.

“Forgive, and then live and move on.”

I’m telling you, this song is killer.

Anyways. Feeling very grateful for the life I’ve lived thus far. Too many young people carry battle wounds larger than themselves.

Lo siento for the grey mood :/ It’s also grey outside :/


Time for a bath and Grey’s Anatomy. Love to all.

Oops hi

Hi all,

It’s been a while since I’ve posted. Oooopsies.

This week I was mostly working with Katya and Peter on DNA Sequencing. Unfortunately, since we had bad results the first time, we had to do the whole experiment over again on Wednesday and Thursday. And after 4 days of work, we still had bad results (albeit, better). Oh well.

Wednesday I worked with Nastya a bit on a Western Blot; she said that we will be doing some next week so I’ll get more practice soon.

Oh! And I put together more of the pieces of both projects I’ve been working on. Nastya’s project is on PKMzeta (protein kinase c, isoform zeta) which functions in the process of storing long term memory. It is hypothesized that when this molecule is removed, a certain memory would be removed (which has been seen I believe in some trials with rats in removing memory of a learned skilled). I think there are issues with translating this study to humans though, since memory is not so localized. Moreover, how can you isolate one memory from another?

Insert! (FYI this post will be very scattered). Galya doesn’t know about banana bread! I told her that I make a lot of banana bread, and she didn’t know what it was! I showed her pictures on the Internet, but it’s not the same as the real thing! Maybe I will bring in banana bread for the last week into work.

Anyway. Where was I? Oh yes, so that is Nastya’s project. Katya’s project focuses on the methods of removing ribosomal RNA. It seems more investigative than driven by a hypothesis.

Also this week I was looking at jobs… real life people jobs. It seems very intimidating, but I think I will have a better handle on things once I go back to school since our job searching website will have more opportunities listed. I’ve always imagined being in NYC or Boston… There is also the fact that Alec is in NYC…. Which, well, I suppose affects things too… not an awful exaggerated amount, but still, something to think about. Sorry I’m not speaking in sentences blah. 

This week I also took the isidewith.com presidential candidates quiz. Lolz. People on Facebook were posting results and everyone’s was the same (including mine). I guess that makes sense considering we all go to elite private liberal arts colleges…

Also Hilary Duff’s new album came out this week and it’s bomber. (FYI hi Kristin).

I’ve been talking a lot with Katya during the day, and it’s really nice and interesting. She’s a very cool and smart person; we also share a love of sci-fi. When I told her I hadn’t seen Star Trek, she was appalled, but laughed at my story of my younger self who stared at the television screen whenever the theme song came on. She did say, however, that all sci-fi fantasies have already been written. I would retort that if this is true for sci-fi, then how is it also not true for other genres? Dramas, rom-coms, etc… How are any of them different from past stories?  Ah…one of the plights of art: hasn’t everything of worth already been done? I feel this way when choreographing sometimes.

Oh! I found a closet in my apartment! I had no idea this closet existed, and then I closed a door once and found a closet behind it! It had random things inside (all of which were not useful to me), but hey, I found something new.

Another random thing – Russians call each other a lot. I think Peter gets a minimum of 7 calls a day. I wonder who is on the other line.

On Thursday, I went to a park with colleagues after work. Peter, Galya, Yulia, and I walked around, chatted, and shared funny anecdotes of culture differences and language. I learned idioms and slang; it was really fun, we were all laughing.  

Peter at one point asked if women sailed in America. I answered “yes, why wouldn’t they”… And then everyone laughed and Peter said something like, “oh America has so much feminism.” Sigh.

Ukraine also came up for the first time recently when I was talking to people about music. Of course they were very happy that I know and love Земфира and Кино and they were very happy to tell me other bands they like. One that was suggested was Ukrainian, and very off the cuff, someone said, “oh yes you know we have problems with Ukraine… but they are Russians and I hope we take them.”  And then people laughed. I don’t think it was supposed to be serious.

I’ve been a tad lazy with this blog. Right now it’s Sunday, but I don’t feel like talking about the weekend (next post woo!). I’ve really gotten into Grey’s Anatomy again and it’s kinda thrown off my movie streak, however, I have watched…

1.     The Hedgehog. French foreign art house film. Super interesting about normal people and their lives. That sounds boring. It wasn’t though.
2.     The Bourne Identity. First time watching! Worth the fuss.
3.     Duplicity. It was boring; couldn’t finish it. I expected more from Julia Roberts. L  


I’ll debrief the weekend soon. Have a great Monday, all!